Fear - Tierney Ragsdale

I feel like weeping

          my eyes are aching,
from damming up this flood.
           I refuse to release,

it makes my body heavy,
          and burdens my breaking bones.

It is never enough to
            wish and want.
Wanting—
           and not allowing.

Never asking,
           and always needing

I cannot let it go.

I feel like weeping
          my eyes are aching.

Forever dreaming,
            only conceiving,
a world that is
            far too true to be good.

Keeping myself at arm’s length,
           from love's strength
Protecting
            and destroying.

Can I let it go? Because—

I feel like weeping,
           and my eyes are aching.

But it will never be enough
            to wish and want;

It is never enough.
I am never enough.